So much but not really.

I am so hard to love but not so hard that you can not be friends with me I am a huge heavy load to carry in your soft hands but not so much that i will bring you down to knees i am like the wild roaring wind but not a hurricane bringing and […]

Behind the close doors.

The doors are closed. Shut by my fragile hands, that carried all my tears dripping down my eyes when there was nobody else to call mine; not even myself. That held all my pain even after causing more pain to themselves when my fingernails dug into them whilst all I could do was scream, scream […]

His memories.

And today my room smells of strawberries and fruit scents. My room is filled with colorful letters, scattered crayons and glitter pens. And today my heart has got heavy with his memories. Just one more time, like always. I woke up dreaming of him hugging me so tight to support me and assure his love […]

An overlooked child 

I was a child An innocent one  A unexciting facade  I remained enthusiastic  All of my childhood  Everybody thought I feel no despair I was too good to be true  And too soft to fight back evil That’s what was my vulnerability I cried hiding in cupboards Wiping tears off in the rain  And whimpering […]

Be Mine. 

How even could you forget our moments together, Sugar? Huh! (A long sigh of patience) Projected to the spring breezes, both of us standing in the balcony, you ask me if your last name could be made mine, remember?  Sweetheart! The zephyr that always hits me -when I enjoy the view from the balcony, it sends […]

Just another catastrophe. 

“I really don’t want a father not a mother. I never thought a father and mother would bother me so much mentally. I thought there are for you listen to you and shower unconditional love and support. But, no. Instead they act like they are the age of same as me and strangle me with […]

A Loser. 

I never committed a mistake. Even then, I am afraid. I am drenched in guilt. Dreadful guilt, awful fear and obscure insecurity. Because, I never felt I came out of my comfort zones even after I stepped into a zone of unknown feelings, experiences and huge number of insults and heartbreaks.  For me, heartbreaks weren’t […]